bak again

Hey!! Im bak again....bak to blog or back to bug!! wteva!! actually....though its kinda difficult to admit it....im feelin kinda lonely n sad!! i mean i hope u understand!! kno wt?? when i saw my previous post...i felt so happy. at last all tht was out from my mind. n it looked so preety on the page. white on black. I love black. It absolutely turns me on!! U might think im weird, but trust me, im not!! why does black always remind u of sadness, gloom and death?? Kno wt black reminds me of?? Of a beutiful black mini dress!! or maybe the beautiful sky alight with stars....and sooooo many dreams like those stars!! Far, yet not unachievable!! Even a gorgeous saree studded with diamonds!! Black- the colour of power. Black- the ultimate colour.
nyway...wt was i sayin?? yeah...im feelin lonely. actually im goin thru dis dilemmna about wt to do wid my life?? i mean my parents expect me to get married some yrz down the line and probably i will....eventually. But what abt nw?? im doin my masters in Management wid a specialisation in IT coz thts wht my dad thought i cud do....so basically im here fulfillin my dad's dreams!! Not tht i mind as long as the job pays!! But wt abt my dreamz?? Whr r they?? I mean....shit man!! The only thing i can do is talk...n maybe write. If i belong anywhr in the sphere of management its HR, defintely not IT...i dunno jackshit abt IT. But i dont wanna quit. I dont wanna see his dreams goin dwn the drain....its jus not done!! But thn...wht abt me?? See wht i mean?? GOD!!! am i upset!!